I like to begin planning my garden this time of year. It offers me the luxury of not having to do much more than sketch, think, dream and imagine what I'll plant. "Where is the sun best for chamomile? I wonder if a patch of greens would be happy under the fruit trees, taking advantage of a little afternoon shade? Is this a good spot for my raised garden?" I like too, that this quiet time in nature is also a nice metaphor for life - stillness before rebirth and renewal.
The land may seem cold, frozen, lifeless but the energy under our feet is just moving at a different pace than we might be used to experiencing. There's a lot going on right underfoot: Roots are taking in nutrients, bugs are hibernating in stillness, insect and plant matter is breaking down into nitrogen, phosphorus and calcium to feed the soil, protect the root systems and then, in the Spring, once again come forth. For now, they are silent, still and just there.
Maybe then, this is a good opportunity for us to think about this silent, still hibernation and offer ourselves a chance to just - be - slow down, plant intentions for the year and nurture them with lovingkindness, positive energy and the desire to be more of your true self. Let the old notions and imperfect actions of the year behind us break down and feed the upcoming year by breaking down into the essence of what the real intention had been that never quite worked. These "mistakes" will become the compost - the food for the upcoming opportunity of growth.
In just a few weeks, the ground beneath our feet will rumble again with energy - awakening to the planet's call to draw towards the sun and grow forth into the visible world in which we share with them.
I have come to find this time comforting and energizing, knowing that the dormancy is there in order to bring activity and new energy and life.
I get sucked into work, giving of myself, trying to please and find that I am constantly exhausted at this time of year. Part of it is fighting what I believe is a cosmic opportunity to go inside myself. Perhaps I will be able to allow myself to "be still" this new year and learn to hibernate with my positive intentions and allow them to take me where I need to be. Not necessarily where I think I should be.